Friday, May 10, 2013

OFW Reintegration Program.

So, I want it!

But what will I do with the loan?

Copycat and start a piggery farm also, I guess.

But where?! I have no land.

Plus, I still want to keep working abroad. Can I take a loan while not reintegrating yet?

And who will I hire? Relatives maybe, so that they will have a livelihood.

Sitting on a pile of cash and I'm doing nothing with it.

So some people have the skill, they don't have the capital. Some people have the capital, they don't have the skill. How do I gain the skills?

I think I like the agribusiness!

Hmm it's not glamourous but it will be like farmville in real life.

So, plan is take the call center job as a USRN and then be a farmer too.

But I like the hospital work experience.

Ok, disclaimer, August 2 marks the three years anniversary of bonjing's nursing career, if opportuity opens, bonjing will grab it.

Why not grab it now? Because it's only three months left for the three years, so might as well get it.

Not so bad here anyways.

Saturday, April 20, 2013

So I told them I passed, reaction was, oh, give us a treat ^_^

But then, it was subdued after a while. Like it's known, you're so stingy, but at the same time there's tension, why aren't you giving?

At the same time, maybe the the thoughts are, I helped others, like to pay for R's recruitment fee which then allowed him to pay off his debts back home...

So just like the auntie who was helping me find a job, or the uncle, they realize, if you help another person at this early stage, if they become successful, and when it's your time that you need help, they will help you because they helped you before.

So now it's like they also want to pass but it's like sure they want to know how to pass but at the same time they don't want the notion that they passed because I helped them, they want the notion that they passed due to their own struggle, because if I helped them and when it's time for me to ask for help from them, they don't like that, because what if you can't help, or like the way they're treating you is different because they know they helped you so now you have to be nice to us, or it's like you are a striving student and you did it, you passed, without this guy's help, much better like that...

Anyway won't things be so much simpler if other people will help you without other thoughts attached to it, but then that's not the way life is, in my utopian dream it would be like that but life is not utopia.

It's not perfect!

So waiting for them to ask for help because I can't really help unless someone asks for it, same thought as before, my fear is if they do ask for help, and I do help them but I help them not at a level of being 100%, so the effect is like just a little help, not enough to pass, so I did not help them enough, oh the pressure, too much forward thinking. I think the best way is to just be straightforward, like Nike, just do it.

Scenario: the cranky old lady who prefers to be independent and then you're thinking, oh I'm going to help her out of the car, she needs it, I will be so helpful! I'll be known as a helpful person! But then she wants to be independent so instead of being helpful to her, reality is you do the opposite, and she's cranky so she spurns your advances to help.

Or like the other day, waiting for the renewal, the TV, it said, the most merciful... so it's like you know the most merciful so you're thinking oh I'm going to do this but I know the most merciful so I just repent and that's it, I'm forgiven, back to being fresh, and you truly regret doing it afterwards because you know it's bad, but looking back, before you did it, I wanted to do it, maybe because it's pleasurable, it's what I want to do, I'm angry at this person and oohh you just want to wring him like wet clothes, crumple him like garbage paper, pop him like a sesame seed.

So what values do I have? I'm good, I'm bad, I want pleasure, I want to do it, but it's bad, so like the patients, they made a mistake, so they're angry at their relatives because they won't help him, so your frustrations are so painful, you go back to the things that give you comfort, this drug is nice, it feels good, it's a cycle, again and again. Can you just split yourself: you're a shelf, move the bad parts on one side, split yourself, and then you're now the empty side which can hold new things.

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

The trip to the hospital yesterday made me sweat and lose my electrolytes. After I got to the hospital, I felt fatigue.

This is what heat does to my body. So I allowed myself to be lazy and not be the super me that I usually am. My time to relax.

Because I didn't feel right. Even if I powered up with a can of Pepsi, I still felt depleted.

And then I boosted up too with a sugar rush. Only when I ate chocolate at night when I got home did I feel back on track.

I don't know how I will combat this heat. Maybe stay indoors more. But I've been staying indoors most of the time.

Maybe I should bring ice.

One of the fears I have is if the vehicle breaks down and we are on the road, baking under the sun. There are rocks, the road, and no trees.

Saturday, September 29, 2012

Bought sandwiches and was walking home. Wind blew and it was strong! Dust all around, it was exciting and scary at the same time. Never got trapped like that before. Not really trapped but stayed put in a spot with a house shielding me. And saw the road, visibility was nil! Was worried what if dust causes allergy, but it was nothing. Hurray for nose hair!

So walked to my new favorite spot, looked at the moon, the stars, the sky, it feels so good.

And then wind again ^_^

That experience was nice, to be surrounded by dust, to be scared but it was totally safe, no harm at all. Just dust in the air.

Like a little excitement ^_^

Eye got irritated, so yeah, that was the only thing bad about it. I'm looking at the dust all over, and I'm wondering, how did it get pulverized like that? Like if you had a solid piece of earth and ground it until it's powder. I'm thinking, if I were a kid and I would play with this, it would be perfect for making shapes and vases, like how I played with water and the soil as a child. That was fun, adding water and then scooping up the soil, forming it to something, and then playing store with leaves as money, and then they would dry, it's solid and you feel great because you've made a lot of wares, and then all the good soil, you've used, you dig further in the ground and the soil isn't that great, there's small rocks and pebbles and the consistency doesn't make it nice for making things, and you run out of good soil, and then you look at the soil here, it's powder! Wish I was young again.

Saturday, September 8, 2012

Saw an ad at the ATM.

Thought, oh, clever. Traffic is high, placement was prominent, it's so unexpected, or at least that's the first time I saw it there. It was taped ^_^

Don't know where it is. For clothes...

I wonder why it's on sale.

Lulu's sale, some are compelling. They have that Al Falaj plastic bucket that I want, bundled with the biggest bucket that can hold water, only for 2 rials! So it's like that big bucket is free. But then I have to carry it from Lulu to here, that would be a problem...

They also have 16GB thumb drive for 3 rials. There have been plenty of promos like this one, some went for 2.900... at least, it's back. Seems like the new norm.

I also like that extension cord with 5 sockets. Only 2 Rials!!! I can't believe I paid more than that when I needed it.

Why is it that when you need it, it's not on sale. But when you already have one, and you see it's so cheap, you want one! What will I use it for? As a spare?

And a bottle of lotion, buy 1 get 1!!! For 1 rial!!! It's awesome.

Until September 14 only.

You go inside the grocery, you know what you want, you search for it, but you can't find it. You find the same product but it's not on sale, so you find the one that's bundled as a sale...

So it's true, Lulu does have some of the best prices. When they are on sale...

Clothes dryer!! For 3 rials only!!! I bought one 5!!! Imagine what I could have saved!!!!

Their prices, they really want to make you shop!

And shoes for 2 rials!! If you don't mind rock bottom prices and rock bottom quality...

It's not rock bottom!! It's Lulu!!

Gosh makes me want to go now or else if I go later, all the good stuff will be gone and the shoppers have brought everything to disarray...

Kinda also like that freezer pack, could be handy when it's hot. But it's 4 pieces. I only need 1...

And they have shorts! 2 rials!! Hmm the price isn't that good...

Noticed the shirts with buttons are more expensive... long sleeves, polos, semi-formal clothes... back home, no one payed too much attention to those, the young teens demanded t-shirts, and the price is reversed, T-shirts are more expensive than the polo shirts.

These products are pretty good, from India.

Hmmm set aside a budget to shop, spend, splurge, enjoy ^_^

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

So I want to sing!

Problem is, lyrics.

I want the lyrics open as fast as the song plays.

Do I move it in the same folder?


Too much moving around.

Do I just memorize it.

That's the best.

So, memorize!!!

Practice practice practice!!!

Solution: Open the lyrics first, and then play the song!!!

That's OK!!!


Now need to sing in my best singing voice!!! PRACTICEEEEEEE!!!

Like so much room for improvement!

My sing, awful!!!!

Sunday, September 2, 2012

Key Lime Pie

So maybe the next Android will be to not make it look like Apple. What an update. Instead of adding improvements, it's just to make it less likely that Apple will sue it.

Well, so I think Google saw that if they released the Droid RAZR HD EDGE or whatever the name of the full screen phone is, Apple is going to sue them, so Google went to Apple to talk and agree that they won't be sued...

I wonder what Key Lime Pie will look like. Google is probably scrambling to release it as soon as possible, because they want to not look like copying the iPhone as soon as possible. So when? 2013???

 Key Lime Pie... like Knot Like aPple Pie

Microsoft went with big squares. So... Key Lime pie... triangles or circles lol

Is that even the name? Key Lime Pie?

What other names are K




Well, Key Lime Pie was made before Apple won. So Google will release Key Lime Pie and they're actually scrambling to finish the one after that. So the next letter is J. Jamba Juice?

Oh wait it's L. lol




OMG!!!! It's lol! Android Lollipop

It's for kids! It's youthful! It's sexy! It's not like the other codenames like Eclair or Ice Cream Sandwich or the other classy names. This one is pure sex!

Licorice... ugh I don't like licorice

Android Licorice... let's not be like Apple...

Of course you don't want to call it a Lemon. Android Lemon lol

Can't wait for Android Lollipop